Before I write anything, let's just say one of my ST goals that I hoped to achieve, which was mentioned in my earlier post, didn't work out. I half-expected that as I am not one that is so disciplined and determined to log onto the internet everyday and write a post on what happened or how I felt each day. Perhaps, an entry per week would be more realistic? Forget it. I shall come in and write when I have the time and when I feel like it. Haha..
On 22 Oct 06, one of my beloved pets (the other being KiKi), Xiao B (a rabbit), passed away at 0829 hrs. She was three years old (A vet once told me a rabbit has a maximum lifespan of six years). When I heard the news from my mum, I was a bit stumped. A rush of bitterness and sadness filled my heart. To be honest, I was surprised at how sad I was. Why do I say that? Ever since KiKi entered my family's life a year-plus ago, Xiao B was kindda neglected. Reason being KiKi was more responsive than Xiao B, who spent most of her life lying in a cage. To put it simply, Kiki was fun and Xiao B was boring. The only person who showed attention to the rabbit was my mum. Maybe that is why my mum cried the hardest when my rabbit passed away.
Don't get me wrong. I love my rabbit. It is certainly no exaggeration that I feel like crying when I'm typing this. The two things that is stopping me from crying are a men's ego and the fact that I'm in office right now. I seldom or never play with my rabbit. One of the reasons may be I'm afraid of getting bitten by her (She's that fierce and her bite hurts. My dog can vouch for that.) The moment I heard the demise of Xiao B, I felt guilty. Guilty of not spending time with her, guilty of not taking care of her and guilty of neglecting her. Why must I only know this when Xiao B is gone? Is it human nature? I do not know. But I had a funny thinking after Xiao B was gone. I suddenly have a thinking that I might be a rabbit come my next life - to experience the loneliness of Xiao B when I neglected her.
Actually, it applies to humans as well. People do not cherish the people around them until they suddenly realise that they do not have another opportunity to cherish them anymore. I have friends that dislike their family members. I pity them. Because those people who dislike their family members are more likely to be hit the hardest once their loved ones are gone. Don't dislike them. They may be naggy at times but it's all for your own good. If you are not important to them, they will leave you out to die. It's precisely they care, that's why they nag. Treat them better than your boyfriend / girlfriend for they are the ones that would not leave you in the lurch under any circumstances. I do not know why I typed this all of a sudden but it's a thought that's in my mind for a while.
Last but not least, rest in peace Xiao B...
